When God Interrupts for Something Greater: Part 2

I graduated with my Bachelor’s on December 19th, got married on January 3rd, moved 1800 miles from KY to CO on January 6th, and started graduate school on January 26th.

People thought we were crazy.

Questions like, “Oh my word, how did you plan a wedding and pack to move at the same time?” and “Wow, aren’t you just exhausted?” came at us like flying darts. Everyone wanted to know why we had gotten married so quickly – 2 ½ month engagement, people – and why we were moving far from everyone we knew.

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Okay, maybe we were a little crazy. But I was growing like mad in my skills to stick to a plan, have a purpose, make my way happen without a hitch, and operate in my perfectionist there’s-no-problem-here manner.

Until I couldn’t anymore.

My first semester in graduate school really was incredible. I was growing and learning and challenging myself in ways I had never done before. I was turning into a real live counselor, not just a girl who wanted to be a counselor. I was reading and researching and making new friends. I was excited.

And at the same time I was struggling with loneliness and battling feelings of unworthiness. I was newly married and not good at setting aside my expectations and plans and schedules. I was missing friends and family, our KY people – all while trying to enter into life with CO people.

And if I’m being honest…

This is still where my heavy heart resides.

This is one girl's story about how God interrupts for something greater. From anxiety & sickness to growth & grace in the Lord - I have felt His presence.

No, I am not unhappy. No, I do not wish to be anywhere besides where God has placed me now. Yes, I love marriage and my husband is my best friend and he makes me deep belly-laugh when my soul needs nothing else. Yes, being a wife is awesome, having new friends is wonderful, and learning new things is exciting.

But there’s this place inside of me that is struggling to just BE. I am anxious, I am lonely, and I am questioning my identity for the first time in my life.

And so, taking a break seemed like the direction God was pointing.

I’m taking a break to learn how to be, rather than continue to do.

I’m taking a break to focus on my marriage. You know, time to laugh those deep-belly laughs more often.

I’m taking a break to study God’s true identity so that I can understand my identity.

I’m taking a break to enjoy life – to go for walks & experiment in the kitchen & write long journal entries.

I’m taking a break to understand my anxiety, this deep-seated fear that won’t leave me alone.

I am taking a break to allow my body time to heal. I have Celiac disease, yes, but I also have this thing my husband and I call “stress-induced pain” – which never seems to want to leave me alone & has caused chronic sickness this semester.

God is the giver of all good gifts, and I believe that this break is from Him. I never would have come to this place on own – with my perfectionism & planning & scheduling & selfish purposes.

But when God breaks into your life in mighty ways, there is nothing better to do than respond. Nothing will still – not my anxiety, or my loneliness, or my struggles with worth – without surrender to the Father.

This is one girl's story about how God interrupts for something greater. From anxiety & sickness to growth & grace in the Lord - I have felt His presence.

So I said I would talk a bit about my journey with anxiety. I would love to have a list of answers for you. (Well, I do, but they aren’t my words.)

I will start by saying that my anxiety isn’t gone. And I’ve come to the realization that it may never be gone.

I’m the girl who falls asleep thinking about the car accident that never happened. I’m the wife that warns her husband to sip his soup carefully because “there might be a chicken bone in there & you cannot choke because I need you.” I’m also the girl that checks behind the shower curtain and texts my mom if I get “the feeling” and reads over papers six times before submitting.

I guess there isn’t really a process to write about, because I still struggle with anxiety like I did when I was an eight-year-old girl. The difference is where I run. I used to run to people & rules & plans. I used to try to keep my life predictable and perfect.

Now I run to Jesus & the Word. I am not perfect at this, because there any many moments when I want to run to people & plans first. But I am training my mind to run to the Lord.

Want to know what difference this has made? Outwardly, I would say nothing yet. My husband still receives a ridiculous number of texts throughout the day just to “check in.” Inwardly though, this has changed my whole perception of worth & planning, true comfort and ultimate grace.

God loves my anxious and over-planned self, and He provides the sweetest comfort and the sweetest grace. So I guess I would say this….

If you’re struggling with anxiety or issues of self-worth, run first to Jesus. Pray first. Find your fighter verse first. No, I cannot promise that your life will be perfect or your plan will work out. But that’s the whole point of this story.

This is one girl's story about how God interrupts for something greater. From anxiety & sickness to growth & grace in the Lord - I have felt His presence. Have you ever felt like God interrupted your life for something greater? Hop on over and see if you can resonate!

Sometimes God has you experience things only to draw you closer to Him. Sometimes moving across the country is more about Jesus and less about graduate school. Sometimes marriage is more about learning sacrifice than being in love. Sometimes feeling lonely is more about God’s ability to comfort as a Father and less about feeling like you have no friends.

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All the time, life is more about Jesus and less about me.

This story is just a lot of words from a girl who wants to send that message loud and clear. All of life is more about Jesus and less about me.


Did you miss day 1 of When God Interrupts for Something Greater? Find it here. It’s the first part in this two-part story.

12 thoughts on “When God Interrupts for Something Greater: Part 2

  1. Alison, beautifully said! I am just so in awe of your authentic writing and how well you get write it out so we can get a glimpse in how you feel and live daily. I love that you desire to help others by couseling. I love that you listened to the Lord’s voice and have taken a break to step back…and who doesn’t love to journal to the Lord?
    I definitely understand some of what you are saying about anxiety issues. Most of my fears have come from abuse and when I was going through the beginning of my healing process from that (started 11 years ago). God revealed to me WHY I felt a certain way about certain things. I pray that the Lord will reveal to you the ROOT of why you feel anxious. Knowing my WHY has helped me heal immensely and deeply. Don’t get me wrong I still have those feeling of “Should I leave my kids in this new church setting with new people watching them? Are they safe? Will they hurt my children” All sorts of questions because who do I trust when 3 of the four abusers were family and my parents best friend I called “Uncle” went to our church.

    But the Lord gives me his peace because I cling to this verse when my anxiety arises, “You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, all whose thoughts are fixed on you!” Isaiah 26:3 and there is a lot more the Lord has taught me but that is for another post…right? OR maybe this us a mini post…sorry it went so long, I just felt prompted to share that with you Alison. Praying with you and for you sister in Christ!

    1. Johanna, thank you so much for sharing that here! I wish I could sit with you over a cup of coffee & hear your whole story – I think we would be kindred souls with a sweet bond. I have a heart for working with abuse victims, not because of personal experience but because God has prodded my heart to walk with others through that particular pain (a huge part of why I am in school for counseling). I love that you’ve encouraged me to find my WHY. I believe that what you’re saying is true. Healing will come more fully after discovering the WHY behind my anxiety. Sometimes that journey seems a little scary. Digging into the deep parts of myself that have never fully surrendered to God won’t be easy. So thank you for encouraging me & prodding me to do that hard heart work.

      Never apologize for “long” sharing here! It warmed me to read your thoughts & part of your story. I’m so thankful you stopped by to read and took the time to comment. I’m hoping that coffee date happens someday, friend. Maybe at a blogging conference? 😉
      <3 Alison

      1. Alison, wouldn’t that be amazing??!! I have considered doing a blogging conference just not even sure when or where?? That would be soooo much fun! That would be wonderful sitting, chatting and sharing what God has redeemed in us through the process of his healing Hand. So thankful that He loves us enough to bring us to that point of wanting healing, not simply staying where we are. I am praying right now for you that you will be brave to do the “hard” thing, because I can say in many areas of my life when he asks me to go deeper with Him, it is hard BUT even moreso I have fallen so much more in love with Him through the process. Praying with you and for you for God’s perfect will to be done in your life!
        That is so amazing that God has called you to help those who have been abused! GOD will use you for sure!!! He already is! The Lord brought the very best counselor in my life at the most needed time of my life and she always proclaimed Jesus to be the healer and she is the facilitator of helping me get there. She always said Jesus was the true counselor, I loved that about her.
        Many blessings friend!!!

        1. It would be! There are so many blogging buddies that I want to chat with in “real” life & get to know on a more personal level. Maybe it will happen someday! I’ll be praying that it does. 😉
          Thank you for your encouragement and prompting. I am truly trying to rest in the Father and prepare my heart for whatever changes He may bring my way during my break next semester. I am prayerful that I will grow deeper in relationship with God just like you said, so thank you for praying for that specifically.
          I smiled when I saw another comment from you. You’ve made sharing my story 100% worthwhile even just to be to connect with you as a new friend. It is so wonderful to read that your counselor pointed you to the one place that really matters – Jesus! I frequently have to remind myself that God has given me the Holy Spirit to be a Helper and an Advocate. It sounds like your counselor embodied that. How wonderful!
          Be blessed, Johanna! <3

  2. oh i feel so connected to your journey in so many was, as I have had a similar journey with perfectionism, health and getting married in two and a half months!!!! But most of all i took a break last year and it took me several months to realize that exact lesson more of Him less of me!!! You summed it up beautifully. Thank you for sharing your testimony.

    1. Oh, Jillian, thank you! Did people think you all were crazy for getting married in 2 1/2 months?! Hopefully I’m not alone in that. 😉 I appreciate you reading & commenting. I think it’s so incredible how God brings like-minded people together, even on a huge place like the web.

  3. Oh how I can relate to your story, even though I’m young. My struggle with anxiety started in September of 2014, little did I know then that God was letting this happen so He would pull me closer to Him than I’ve ever been before. In the beginning of my anxiety, I had (and still struggle with off and on) an iron deficiency, I had no idea. I thought I was dieing, I couldn’t get enough air in my lungs and I was in constant fear that I wouldn’t wake up, not that getting to be with my Savior would be a bad thing at all, but at the time it scared me. My doctor didn’t know what was wrong with me (which you think he would because iron deficiency is one of the most common deficiencies) so I got an inhaler, which kind of helps but not really. Recently I moved, and it’s so scary, I don’t have any friends at all and I’ve been living here for almost 7 months and I’m about to move again in a couple months, I’m quite an introvert so I never initiate conversations and no one else ever does. But in spite of all this, I’m really starting to see God for who He really is, that His love for me is deeper than the ocean and wider than the universe. When I get over whelmed or anxious I’m learning to turn to Jesus first, and what an impact that has all already left me! Thank you for reminding me that it really is all about God and that He is in control! God really used this for me! <3 🙂

    1. It is sweet how God can use difficulties like anxiety and sickness to draw us closer to Him! Isn’t that the purpose of this life anyway – to glorify God with all of our lives? Your story is evidence of that. 🙂 It’s difficult to hear about your struggles and health concerns. I totally get that. I’m right there with you. Change, sickness, and anxiety have a way to leaving us unsettled and afraid. But I praise God that you’re finding comfort in Him in these tough moments!
      I’m so thankful that God used this post in your life. Know that you are not alone.
      Thanks for commenting and taking the time to read!

  4. Dear Allison thank you for letting God use you to open my eyes in realizing that I need to stop and realign my life to God’s will and purpose. I am confident by your testimony many lives will be changed.
    God bless you

    1. Roselyne, thank you so much. Wow, what a sweet comment! We serve a powerful God, and I am so thankful that He chose to use this post in your life today.

  5. “I’m the girl who falls asleep thinking about the car accident that never happened. I’m the wife that warns her husband to sip his soup carefully because “there might be a chicken bone in there & you cannot choke because I need you.” I’m also the girl that checks behind the shower curtain and texts my mom if I get “the feeling” and reads over papers six times before submitting.” ARE YOU SURE YOU DIDN’T HIJACK MY BRAIN FOR THIS POST? Alison! This is me! You describe my daily life better than I even can! I am so happy to have found your blog. Anxiety has been a life long struggle for me as well, even moreso since my daughter was born. I agree so much with praying first and finding your fighter verse. Man, it is so encouraging to know that I am not the only one. Not happy that you go through it, but blessed to know that if we must there are others to walk alongside us. Thank you so much for the encouragement!

    1. I SO agree! In the hard stuff and the uncertain stuff, it is always a huge comfort to know we’re not alone! I would never wish anxiety on anyone, but when we can find each other and support one another in Christ, everything changes. Thanks for commenting, girl! 🙂

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